Wednesday, August 31, 2016

A Grey Kinda Day...

Last day of August... and I'm having a Grey kinda day.  Mostly because so much is pending... and still quite stressful in Epic doses.  The Young Prince's Specialist Appointment is still pending and a few days off.  I'm still worried sick about what might be wrong since it's a pretty serious physical Medical condition going on and he's barely functional due to it.  I don't want a succession of Emergency Room interventions to ensure his bodily functions don't crap out completely because of something unknown, it's stressing me out like you wouldn't Believe! And he's got to try to go to School as if nothing is physically going kaput with him!  More School Drama from those folks we DON'T Need!

My foot Surgery is still pending due to the Insurance denial Issue with the original Surgeon who wouldn't accept it... and running it all thru for Approvals again with the newly appointed Surgeon and his type of Procedure being Blessed is taking as usual... LONG.  And I've already waited a long time for it all to even get to where it was, so I'm getting Impatient and Irritated too.   I'm still hobbling around in pain and that makes ya kinda Feel Grey EVEN IF everything else was in Order, which it's so NOT.

We have a Purchase of the Old Property pending and a very serious Buyer... but Yesterday the property endured another round of break-ins and severe Vandalism and Theft.  Stripping all Copper wiring, electrical, cable and plumbing!  Sadly too common nowadays, even during New Builds if a vacant property isn't under 24 Hour Surveillance by on site Security.  That was disheartening since that could diminish value further, even tho' this prospective Buyer is more interested in re-development than restoration of a Historic property.  *Le Sigh*

  Which is Sad enough to accept, without low life Thieves and Vandals destroying something I Love in layers beforehand and costing my Family money we don't have to waste on running such constant damage control behind them.  Mostly Anger replaces Sadness... when any Historic Properties are ravaged and utterly destroyed by Vandals and Thieves would it be too much to ask for the Death Penalty as appropriate Punishment for them... or is that too harsh?  *Winks*

Seriously I cannot even contemplate how on any level anyone can rationalize or justify doing such things for 'fun' or meager profits, you have to be a really twisted, Sick, bottom feeder Life form to have reached that level of depravity. Yes, I'm Judging... because if you'd have been with us to Witness the carnage and destruction equating to thousands more of dollars lost and thousands more to repair... and not for the first time in less than three Months of being up for Sale, you'd perhaps stand in Judgment with us against the perpetrators of such Crimes!?  It is a Scourge against decent Society in general to be Victims of such Crimes, it's quite the Feeling of being Violated and it makes me Feel Grey.

When you've worked very hard and Honestly for anything and had it either Stolen, Destroyed or Vandalized by a Criminal... and especially when they don't get caught so there is no Justice and certainly no Restitution... you become quite Cynical about how they should be handled if and when they ever get caught.  Because so long as they're out there roaming around committing their habitual Crimes with little or no Consequence... YOU could be next... in fact you probably will be next statistically, it's just a matter of Time with how rampant certain Crimes are nowadays.  Many things are spiraled out of Control already.

And it's not just an Inner City Problem anymore, when I am inclined to want to Web Surf my Favorite Historic Home sites online, I'm appalled at how many Vacant Historic Properties meet with a similar Fate regardless of protective measures or where they happen to be demographically.   Is there a pervasive Mentality that if it's Old then it doesn't matter what we do to it now?  I Pray not... since I'm Old too now... and it can become a slippery slope because any Negative Behaviors Tolerated are Behaviors Accepted by Society.  And the Acceptance of any Criminal Activity is a precursor to Chaos and Fear reigning and becoming 'Normal'.

I personally refuse to accept abnormal or toxic conditions in Society as becoming my 'Normal'.  We have to Guard against what we can become Used to and desensitized to... to a point where it just meets with Resignation and Acceptance no matter how inappropriate, toxic or damaging it is.   We went ahead and Rescued what we could of what has been ravaged... and we'll have to go back and clean up and attempt to re-secure everything more Fortress-like this Weekend.  When we don't have so much on our Dance Calendar in the way of Important Appointments we can't delay further nor Cancel.

At least this time the Response time was appropriate and the two Officers, who were brand new to the Force, did their Job very, very well and with the utmost of Compassion and Sensitivity, taking it all Seriously and doing everything properly to Process the Crime scene.  Alas, that has not always been the case, but I'm so relieved this time it was and I commended them profusely, they apologized profusely for previous Negative experiences with their Municipality.  It's Nice when things mesh in a way that makes an already bad situation just not worse, you know?  I mean, one Outbuilding the Criminals couldn't break into because it was too Secure they just cut a hole in the freakin' Roof and dropped themselves in... then cut an Exit hole in the Wall to pass what they stripped out and Stole thru... Seriously!!!!!!!!!!  No Preventative Measures against that kinda breaking and entering!

I also finally got the follow-up for expanded Services for my Grandson from his Mental Health Provider to Assist us finally with this School Fiasco still playing out for 'Appropriate' Placement!!!   I no longer Trust his School due to their initial Alternative Placement suggestion which was on the far side of Inappropriate.  It will be a Process, it always is... you'd think by now I'd be just used to it and roll with it better, but I'm Passionate about the Rights of the Disabled not being trampled or outright violated.  And especially when they're MY Disabled... you know... then it gets Personal!!!  *Winks*  I'm trying to get over my Greyness, where everything is neither Black nor White but this muddy Grey Area to navigate and make Sense out of.

Okay, so when it comes to Decorating I'm a Fan of Grey, it's a Classy, Timeless, Soothing and Agreeable Color Palette that goes quite well with so many things and is something I can Live with.   But when Grey Issues and Mood pervade my World, not so much am I a Fan of having Grey kinda days.  *LOL*   They just kinda make you Feel Blah... and I'm not a Blah type Personality usually so it's just not comfortable to Feel it or Deal with it too long without it inciting Irritation for me.   Today's Appointment for The Princess should be a more Positive one, she's having preventative Dental work and is a Fanatical Tooth and Flossing Child so it should go Well I expect.  One day at a time Dawn... one day at a time...


Blessings from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian

Monday, August 29, 2016

Rust & Roses Grand Re-Opening ~ The Finale' Post

I'm finally at the end of my Pathological Picture Taking of the Shops... so funny you can see me in the mirror lining up this Shot!  *LOL*   I'm absolutely Loving my new Camera, Michelle I cannot Thank you enough for this Wonderful Gift!  I wasn't sure how proficient I would be with any new upgraded piece of Technology but this is so User Friendly I've be satisfied with my practice runs using it.  And Confident enough to leave my trusty Old Camera at Home!

That's hard for me... not having a reliable back-up when I'm doing anything with something New that I'm not used to.   But I know that in order not to Default to the Old I have to leave it behind and take the risks of just using whatever is New and getting used to it with Practice and Patience.  Are you like that too my Friends or do you Adjust rapidly to newer Technology?  I Confess that I usually need an Adjustment Period, you should have seen me when I first got my Smart Phone... I felt anything BUT Smart with it!  *LOL*

I was almost afraid to get Calls because by the time I figured out how to answer they'd usually hung up!   And I still have to solicit the help of The G-Kid Force to enter new numbers.  They've Patiently trained me, but by the time I need to input another new number I've forgotten how to go about it again!?  So I've got slips of paper all over the place with new numbers awaiting input!!!  *LOL*  Yet I see small Infants using their Parent's Smart Phones like a Pro!  Wait, is that a Six Month old able to navigate that Technology better than me, I'm marveling... Yes, Yes it is!!!   Oh the Embarrassment that I'm now not as Smart as a Baby when it comes to New Technology!!!  *Blushing!*

So though I'd received my Fab New Camera I was a bit hesitant to have Maiden Voyages using only it and leaving my trusty back-up at Home... just in case.  Nothing worse than merrily Pathological Picture Taking only to come Home, download the Images and realize you did a crappy job of it and can't use any of it!  I still bear the Shame of a Scenic Family Vacation to Zion National Park years ago, using a Professional Grade Camera my Brother loaned me, and not realizing I'd neglected to take the lens cap off until AFTER we got back Home!!!  Yeah, I can never quite Live that faux pas down!  *Smiles*

And let us not forget the time when we were still using 35mm film and I accidentally mixed up the new film with a used roll and ended up with an entire double exposed roll that looked so eerie and spooky you'd think we'd been Ghost Hunting on our Trip Photographing Vulture Mine!   *LOL*  With all the new Technology of coarse there is less waste or expense to Photography and the Delete feature coupled with instantly seeing your Images on a Screen does Help immensely.   But I'm very Picky when it comes to Photography, especially my own Photography, I harshly Critique my results.

And I'm much more fond of my close-ups ability than my panoramic ability, even with this New Camera.   But I must say I'm becoming a much better Photo Editor... and Editing in general, which has been a long range Goal of mine.  Slowly but surely with plenty of Practice I'm becoming more proficient at the Art of Editing... of Culling... of Curating... of Refining.  I may not be as adept at it yet as someone it comes Naturally to, since I have to make a conscious effort and it's not one of my Natural tendencies... but I'm a Work in progress.

It's one of my self-improvement Projects I have going on with myself so that all my other Projects have an outcome I'm more satisfied with.  With the Blank Canvas a New Home provided it gave me the Catalyst to Evolve my Environment to be more Simplified than in the Past.  Granted, my take on Simplicity is not Minimalistic by any means so a Purist might argue I'm still rather a Maximalist.  *Winks*   But for a person prone to Excess and the inherent Mantra of More is never Enough... I've come a long way lemme tell ya!

You wouldn't know that to look at my Garages right now... since the overage is out of sight and thus out of Mind most of the time until I can get around to it.   Then we'll see how much I struggle to Let Go of as much of that as I can tolerate of what has been stored away and probably won't have a place in my Just Enough Process??!??!   I'll be tackling that in the Fall actually, when I can throw the Garage Doors open and drag some of it outside while I Organize what is inside and try to make some Order out of the present Chaos.  And unpack... since my Goal will be to go thru every single box and crate and have zero storage except for Seasonal Items!  Lofty Goal, huh?

I'm just tired of storage, there seems to be no point to storage from a Logical standpoint.  How can I possibly be Attached to anything I've had stored away unseen and unused in a box or crate for Lord knows how long anyway?   And yet, I cannot for the Life of me do what my Dear Old Dad always did and suggested I do too... if it's been in a container of any kind for over a year, don't even open said container, just get rid of it without even peeking inside!  *Gasp!*   Yes, he did... and it didn't bother him one iota... my Dad, clearly I did not inherit that Gene of Detachment to stuff!   Dad was always so nonchalant about stuff and he could Care less if he even had any actually... he was the antithesis of Materialistic in fact!!!

Me... I have and Adore my Lovelies... my Collections and Decorating with them and beholding them, I Enjoy it.   But the taking Care of it all... not so much since I'm Lazy when it comes to housekeeping.   So my Motivation for Simplifying is not just in giving the Eye somewhere to Rest... I'm not so concerned about my Eyes Resting as I am about ME being able to Rest more!  *Winks*   When you've Simplified your Environment you've more Successfully Simplified your Life and probably Created less Work and things to Care for!

And yet... I know that my ability to de-stash will only carry me so far... because my mini Hoards of things are easily Organized and I just Love rifling thru them.   I've got those bits and bobs, those Smalls, that I just Enjoy having Too Much of.   There are some things I don't even Believe I CAN have Too Much of... contrary to Popular Opinion around the house.   I look at it as being an Impressive Collection, they look at it as an specific item Hoarded Up!!!  *Bwahahahahaha!!!* 

 I used to be asked how many Antique Rosaries did I NEED before it would be Enough... for example?  They don't ask me that anymore since I did at least quit buying any on a regular basis and even Sold Off some!  *Gasp!!!*   Mostly because when I was an Incurable Collector of them they were inexpensive to Source... now they're NOT... and the margins for resale are impressive!  So I could Justify said Collection as a Wise Investment!  *Yay!*  And they're one of those items that each one is different and therefore, I NEEDED each one because of it's Distinctions and Uniqueness or Rarity!  *Smiles* 

 And besides, for years it gave the Family an easy solution to Gifting... get her a Rosary, she'll LOVE it... and they were right... I did!   The Man would bring one back from every TDY and Deployment Overseas he went on!   I even had some Family and Friends Create Rosaries for me, which then had the added Sentimental Value attached to those pieces.  So in a way they contributed to my Delinquency and were Enablers to my Rosary Addiction.  *Winks*   

 It also propelled me for a Season to Create my own Rosary Line and Sell them or give them away to Priests that would use them on their Mission Field or to Catholic Friends as Gifts.   Then some of my Non-Catholic Friends began wanting some since my Rosaries were far from the Ordinary Variety... natch... coz you know me!  *Winks*  I began getting very Extravagant with the Supplies... using Semi-Precious Stone Beads and Sterling Silver Findings and Crucifix.   I also repaired or Up-cycled broken Vintage or Antique Rosaries.   And then the Arthritis in my hands and Diabetes affecting my Eyes began making it difficult to do Rosaries as an Art Form and so I stopped... just like that.

Which was Okay because I've often had to stop some things just like that when circumstances dictated it for whatever the reason.   Collecting of a specific item can be stopped just like that as well... and sometimes I'm not even sure why the Impulse has waned?  Or I just move on, still Loving whatever it is, but no longer Feeling any Urge whatsoever to acquire or even Find any more of it.  And if I fall out of Love with something, I can banish it ALL in a heartbeat as well with absolutely no remorse of Letting it Go en mass.  I have disposed of entire Collections when their Time has come and I'm out of Love with having it or Needing it!

In fact one of the best things is to find someone just beginning a Collection of whatever it is and Surprising them with the Instant Collection of it you're disposing of by Gifting it!!!   Because True Collections can take Time... sometimes a LOT of Time to procure and acquire piece by piece and not everyone Enjoys the Thrill Of The Hunt part of Collecting or has the Time to devote to it.   So an Instant Collection for some is a Gift unto itself... whereas for me part of the Thrill WAS in it taking Time to Find and Acquire piece by piece until it reached an Impressive Collection Phase of the Process.

So Yes, I've Gifted numerous Entire Collections of things when I Feel Called to give it away... rather than Sell it off piece by piece, which sometimes Feels Wrong.  Sometimes breaking up an entire Collection for the sum of it's parts for Profit just does not Appeal to me, I'm Weird like that sometimes with my Stuff.  *LOL*   Other times I've offered an entire Collection for Sale... but mostly Buyers aren't into buying entire Collections and Pickers only certain entire Collections or Hoards depending upon the items.  *LOL*   So parting it out piece by piece is sometimes necessary... and Profitable, when you're ready to Let Go.

But I must say I've never really Collected with the Intention of Profit or even Investment as the highest Priority of Why I'm doing it.   I just Collect what I Love and what Appeals to me Personally... and it's just an added Bonus if later on it gains in Value or becomes Trendy and highly Coveted by others in the Retail Marketplace.   Almost always it HAS been a better Investment than Money in the Bank, I have to admit, and as a Retired Banker I Hate to have to admit that actually.   My Return on Investing in my Stuff when I do Sell it off has always had way better margins than Money in the Bank and those lousy returns, in recent years especially.

I'm not a High Risk kinda Gal when it comes to what I Invest in you see because I worked hard for my Money... and most high yields in Banking carry high risk... so it's just not for me.  I'm sure that's why I've never been a Gambler and find no Joy in Gambling... just too risky and I'm more comfortable with a sure thing and the stability of sound value and having a solid return rather than sustaining and weathering a loss.   I applaud those who are Risk takers and manage to beat the odds though that aren't in their favor, high five to them... I just know I'll never be one of their Tribe.

The slow and steady has Served me Well so I'm Okay with Trading Up and Moving Up slowly but surely.   I stick with things for the long haul and that too has Served me quite Well in fact in many avenues of Life.   Being tenacious has it's rewards... so does avoiding the Temptation of Instant Gratification, which I Feel has been a downfall in Society because everyone wants what they want and they want it right now!!!

Patience might not be one of my particular Virtues really but Frugality certainly is.   I never want to pay too much, I never want to go in debt if I can avoid it, I don't NEED anything right now that I could actually wait for if it's not a Necessity and is merely a Wanting rather than a True Needing.  I grew up in an environment where long waits were the norm so I can be more relaxed about things taking due time without going ballistic.  I Smile to myself when I see such modern gadgets Invented to streamline an already instant process.  The other day I saw a contraption to microwave Instant Oatmeal, as if waiting the one minute it already takes isn't fast enough!!!  *Bwahahahaha!!!* 

I simply cannot even relate to someone who can't even wait a Minute for something!   Where sixty seconds would be too long and inconvenient for them!!!   What a Stress filled over-scheduled Life they must lead to be in THAT much of a hurry for anything!!!  I would think that complaining that a Minute was too long a wait would take more than a Minute to verbalize!?  *LOL*  And since something was Invented, Patented and clearly Selling {the Inventory seemed close to Sold Out on the Display} I guess there really are a Tribe of folks out there who are that Impatient and hurrying beyond levels of Sanity?!?  *Smiles*

Perhaps that is part of the reason why one-on-one Socialization is falling by the wayside, some might Feel it takes too much Time and energy to Invest in other people.  Especially for those who might need such a contraption as an Instant Oatmeal nuking device so that it would take less than sixty seconds to have their Breakfast prepared and ready to scarf down?!?   I also have to muse if those same peeps spend less than sixty seconds eating their speeded up Instant Oatmeal??!?!   Making it, eating it and rushing out the door in less than two Minutes... World Record!!!  It would be like the Instant Oatmeal Olympics!!!  A White Rabbit, "I'm Late, I'm Late for a very Important Date..." rushing around Type Personality!!!  *Bwahahaha!*

Of coarse when I've seen certain Shopping Frenzies of these same Types of Personalities I realize that every aspect of their Lives must be in hyper-drive and warp speed is the only pace they operate at!?   Is it even Enjoyable then, doing anything, when you're in THAT much of a hurry all the time?  Or does Enjoyment take too much Time too?   I'd ask, just out of Curiosity, but I doubt they'd stand still long enough to be questioned or even respond??!  *Winks*   And it makes The Man and I Glad that we grew up in a less Frantic Era and Simpler Time.  Where we take our Time to Enjoy being IN the Moment and not rushing quickly into the NEXT Moment and so on and so forth until ALL of the Moments are but a blur!

We like to frequent a variety of venues and demographics just to People watch and Observe.  We've noticed for example that when we're in a Restaurant frequented by mostly our Generation or Older... there is more of an emphasis on Hospitality extended to the Customers... because that's what our demographic expects and particularly enjoys.  People are actually talking to each other, often knowing each other whether Customer or Staff, as they dine and are interacting on a Personal level.  Yes, the Customer knows the Staff and vice versa and there is a Remembering going on.  They usually even know something ABOUT one another so that it isn't purely Superficial in nature.

If you go where mostly the Younger demographic dine, efficiency and leaving the Customer alone seems to be more the norm and expectation.  People are all on their electronic devices ignoring everyone around them, including those at their own table or those Serving them, it's very impersonal.  Staff almost seem shocked if you Notice them or acknowledge them kindly... and I find that Staff then Remember you, even in those places... and maybe particularly in those places where it is more a rarity and exception to the rule.   It's all very Interesting and makes me Wonder if they won't regret lacking in Socialization Skills and the Gift of giving anyone their full attention, once they're Older and have to slow down?

Even though my Children and The G-Kid Force we're raising are of those Younger Generations and demographic, we have raised them to be interpersonal with folks.  It's more than a Social Etiquette, this training to acknowledge others and give those with you IN the Moment your Full Attention and actually BE PRESENT in the Moment yourself.   We Believe it is an important part of the Human Experience and we wouldn't want them to miss out on that.  Even if many now totally ignore bygone ways of Socializing and don't seem to Want nor Need it or Practice it.   I think that is also why many from our demographic easily bond with and genuinely Like our Children and The G-Kid Force... they are like Old Souls in Young Bodies in their ways.

Here's to Celebrating Old Souls... and Beautiful Old Stuff too!  *Winks*


Blessings from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian

Saturday, August 27, 2016

Rust & Roses Grand Re-Opening ~ Part III

I've got The Blues... The Indigo Blues.   Well, if you're gonna have The Blues that's the best kind to have, The Indigo Blues.   Even those of us who aren't necessarily Fans of a Blue Color Palette per se, can be drawn in by shades of Indigo and it's Rich Saturated Exotic Vibe.  Indigo Batik Pillow Creations abounded at the Shop for this Season and I was totally diggin' it.

Coupled with the heady Scent of huge bundles of dried Lavender, it was intoxicating.   I always keep dried Lavender sachets around the house and especially in our linen drawers.  I've grown Lavender to Harvest fresh, it does relatively well in a Desert environment and there are many types, so I almost always have some in my Herb Gardens.  Lately I've been looking at edible Lavender incorporated into various foods and refreshments... since I'll try anything once, twice if I like it.  *Winks*

But if you didn't want to grow and Harvest your own, Shelly has a wealth of it at the Shop available for purchase in lovely fragrant bundles, heaped up and giving off their delightful aroma.   I'm a very Sensory person and thus I've Enjoyed utilizing Aromatherapy for many, many years.   There's nothing so flattering to me in fact as someone associating a particular delightful Scent to me or to my Home.   Do you have a Signature fragrance or perfume that evokes an instant thought of you and your Essence to others my Friends?   

Is there some delightful aroma that makes people think of their times spent with you or around your Home?  Is it perhaps the scent of freshly baked Pies or Home made Bread from your kitchen if you Enjoy baking and do it often?    I can't not think of my Dad, the Master Chef, when I smell anything delightful Baking or Cooking!!!   Is it the scent of Fresh crisp clean sheets or a lovely scented Soap you use often?  I know I can't smell that Beautiful scent of Fresh crisp clean sheets and linens without thinking of my Mom, who always made Laundry a Fine Art and who could make a Home always smell like it had just been thoroughly Spring cleaned.  Which it probably had since for her cleaning wasn't a chore, it was something she delighted in daily.

These are Sensory things that can evoke permanent Memories for others and we might not even be fully aware of or even think about.  How the smells, sights, touch and sounds of what we surround ourselves with become a part of our very Essence and can become a fond Memory to those we've spent Time with.    I think this is why I have Favorite Shops as well, the Essence of certain Businesses is infused in the Styling of their Inventory and how it is Presented.  For the Small Business especially there is a Personality of who Owns it and what Atmosphere they present to their Customers.

Shelly and her Designers present a Wonderful Atmosphere to their Customers and a Unique Vibe with carefully Curated Inventory they have Sourced from far and wide.   They have spent all Summer Sourcing to fill the Shop for the Fall kick-off in fact.  To bring us this luscious presentation of Indigo Blues, Architectural Salvage Finds to Die for, Vintage and Antique furnishings, Natural Elements, Accessories and Fashions Created by superb Artisans. 

Had the dreaded budget permit I would definitely have scooped up this Beaver Top Hat embellished with Lace for my Taxidermy Goat to sport.   Right now he's still languishing in one of the Garages waiting for his debut in whatever room of New Villa Boheme' he will permanently occupy.   I'm thinking it will probably be the Juliet Room whenever I get around to finally painting the Walls in there.  I've been procrastinating on a lot of the larger Projects due to the heat of Summer, but as it begins to Cool off and I can throw open those French Doors to the Juliet Balcony of Death... I'll probably then tackle the Transformation of said room!  *Smiles*

I can only Imagine the amount of Work and sweat it took to Transform an entire two Sister Shops at the tail end of Summer for Shelly and the Designers!  Because SIRENS & SAINTSthe Sister Shop, also looked completely Transformed and a Vision of Loveliness and filled with a wealth of Fresh killer Inventory!!!

And speaking of Killer... I almost wanna Kill Her because a certain Beast Princess has been coming Home from School in a Nasty Dark Funk lately and spreading Toxic Negative Energy all over the place to Torment us all!!!   She will not Endure her own Torment without Sharing it in a most Dramatic Fashion.  She finds living out here in the boonies to be about as Boring and lacking in Social opportunities as I do... but being only Ten... it's Magnified a Thousandfold for her!   This is our little Socialite who almost needs an Entertainment Director at her disposal because if she has an unfilled Moment in her day, she's Misery personified!  There have been a lot of Moments... too many unfilled Moments!!! *Oh no!!!*

Riddle Moi with Guilt since a Fancy New Dream Home and it's Novelty wore off quickly for both Kiddos and they lament we might have been better off staying in our Beloved Old Home in the Hood where we at least had many Friends and lots to do!??!  Uh oh... yeah, these City Kids are having an almost worse time of transitioning to Rural Living and having little to do but enjoy a Nice Home!  The Subdivision has a lot of people but is certainly lacking in the Hospitality Factor, even among the Young people apparently.   She does have Friends at School, but most don't live in THIS Subdivision and are bused in so they only Socialize at School or if their Parents are willing to Transport them to Play Date Invitations.

We were used to having a house full of Kiddos, all living within walking distance from each other or being able to walk to almost anything, shops, restaurants, library, Clubs, parks, etc...    So our Kiddos either had their Posse daily in our Home, or they were Invited over to the Homes of their Friends and spent many Happy hours there or they were out and about in Old Town with Friends.   When you are used to daily Social interactions with people you Enjoy in a tight knit Community, it is tough to have that barren Alone time too often.  To feel Lonely and Bored out of your Mind with nothing to do, no Socialization and a long commute to get anywhere.   I 'get it'... and so I do have Empathy.

And thus every Weekend she looks forward to Planning Trips into the City on Friday Nights so we can 'Get Outta Here' and have a Life as she likes to put it.  *LOL*   Alas, with her Brother having a Medical Emergency that we have to sort out, I have to stay close to Home this entire Weekend.  Lest we need to make more Emergency Room Trips while waiting to get him into the Pediatric Specialist after Insurance Blesses the Emergency Request for a Referral to one.   We don't know when we'll get that call to get him in Stat, so I don't want to be out and about.  Not that she doesn't Care about her Brother being so ill, but Color her dreadfully disappointed and unhappy... so the Dark Mood prevails since waiting another Week is an Eternity for a Child!

Not that her Brother is any less unhappy and disappointed, since he's feeling dreadful and had to cancel a third Weekend in a row to visit his Dad's side of the Family in the City due to a string of illnesses he's battled since School began.  He looks forward to that very much too but has the Maturity to Roll with it such that it is, which makes it much easier on Moi.  He's actually an easy Child to Care for when he's Sick since he prefers to voluntarily rest and not complain incessantly or be overly demanding. 

  I feel so bad for the Kid, Yesterday's Trip to the ER put him thru the wringer and an almost intolerable amount of intense pain for which nothing they could give him would provide any relief.   Which puts me in an almost intolerable amount of Anxiety since what Mom or Gramma can stand to see their Kiddos suffering intensely and be able to do nothing about it?!?!!  He was begging me to ask them to put him out and sedate him, but of coarse rarely can or will they do that with Children, too risky and for this situation, not wise either.  I have slept most of the Afternoon away after another round of Doc Appts. for him Today, I'm Emotionally and Physically drained from this Ordeal he's going thru!

So even IF we could go into the City this Weekend, I probably wouldn't have it in me to actually.   And if you are Parenting a Ten year old Child you know how demanding of your Time and Energy they can be, especially if they see you not Feeling 100% because it Scares them.   After all, Grandpa isn't in Good Shape, her Brother is now not in Good Shape, so she's not having it that Gramma doesn't look to be in Good Shape either lately!!!   She'll do any amount of antics to get me back to looking like my Normal Self, even if it's Negative Attention she's inciting.  

 After all, Negative Attention seems better than No Attention to most Kiddos!   But my Reserves of Attention are spread quite thin and depleted right now.  *Le Sigh*   So... she finally gave up after Dinner and Calmed down enough to occupy herself playing Games on my Cell Phone and give everyone a Break... Thank God for Technology and Young People's Enjoyment of it!  *Whew!*  The Guys were Thankful I found SOMETHING... ANYTHING... to make her Stop!!!  The Young Prince's Bargaining Power was depleted due to needing her NOT in his Room so he could rest adequately.  All the other Tech Gadgets she Loves are in there and I needed Blogging here to Save my Sanity from hearing her Mood Swings in full force!  So I wasn't giving up my Computer!  *LOL*

And Lord knows The Man wasn't giving up the Remote Control to the main TV in the Living Room... he would have gone thru Withdrawal and had a Fit if he'd been Forced to watch her Little Girl Shows with her!  Is it Wrong of us to absolutely loathe the Girl Team of SAM & CAT and their Show?!!?!?  *Bwahahaha!*   I've had to Endure a lot of Kid Shows in my well over three decades of raising Children... but there are some Shows I just can't get thru... and The Man is more tolerant than I when it comes to watching Mindless Shows lemme tell ya...  *LOL*

But this Show... well, even for a Guy that can watch every Mindless Reality Show about Life in Alaska or Ice Road Truckers... it's just too much, even for him... and that's saying something!  *Smiles* The Sweet looking Young Lady on the Right, her Character and especially the Voice of the Character is like someone scratching their nails on a Chalkboard to me!!!   I could run out of the room screaming from the agony of trying to Endure it... and yet, for Ten year old Girls, this Show is apparently da bomb!!!   And now, BECAUSE she knows it aggravates Grandpa and they have this duel going on with World Domination and Control of the Remote... she Torments him with incessant requests to watch it with her.  Even though she has a new TV in her own Lovely Bedroom Upstairs... she doesn't like Solitude so rarely spends time up there... Upstairs, where we wouldn't have to hear it or her carrying on... Alas!

Will we Survive Puberty with a Blossoming Grand-Daughter?  Stay Tuned... in the meantime, I still have lots of Visual Distractions for us both coming up in Future Posts... so come back at least for that... Okay?  *Winks*


Blessings from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian

A life touched by God always ends in touching others. - Erwin McManus

I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness for it shows me the stars. - Og Mandino (1923-1996)

For creativity to flourish one should try to look at everything as though it were being seen for the first or the last time. - Quote from "A Thousand Paths To Creativity" by David Baird

Is what I'm about to say an improvement on silence? ~ Galen Pearl