Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Much Ado About Nothing

Ahhhh... you might have thought perhaps there would be no Words in Today's Post?   I've tried a Wordless Post, doesn't quite work for me since I'm as much an avid Writer as I am an avid Photographer and one doesn't seem quite Complete without the other.  *Smiles*   But I do find that I can make much ado about nothing at times.   So I have to slow my roll before adding or uttering Words to a Feeling... or what I am taking in Visually.   Lately I've been making much ado about nothing a LOT.  Not that I've often voiced those Sentiments outside of my own head, but I still know I'm doing it.  I can Magnify what could be a trifle into something so much more than it needs to be.  I'm sure Freud would have an Explanation for why some folks can handle Epic Crisis in stride and yet go to pieces about Insignificant things... I'm not really all that interested in why I'm this way, I just know that I am.


In the Grand Scheme of things most of what I'm making much ado about is probably not all that Important really or worth as much Attention as I give it.   It's not going to be a Life or Death Situation and probably nobody else even Cares about what I'm tending to Fixate upon?   And I can Fixate, Trust and Believe I am easily Fixated in fact!  *LOL*   And I know well what those things will be that I tend to become so Fixated about that I'll make much ado about them!   Mess and Disorder come to Mind first and foremost... and yet, I tend to be a rather Messy and Chronically Disorganized Individual, so why it even is such a Big Deal to me is a complete Mystery really!?!   Why I can make much ado about the Mess and Disorder others Create, when I'm so prone to it myself, is rather baffling when I think about it.   But the Mess and Disorder others Create does set me off... especially if I'm in the Role of running Damage Control behind them!


Cleaning up one's own Mess is rather more tolerable... because often, if I've had to put enough Time and Effort into it, I'll keep it that way for a while... perhaps even a long while before I'd need to do it again.   So it's not so bothersome to Clean Up behind myself, even though I'm Responsible for quite a bit of Chronic Mess and Disorder.  Because normally I never expect anyone else to Clean Up after me.   If I make a Mess I fully expect to be the one to take care of it at some point in the Future.   I Wish everybody felt this way, but clearly everybody does NOT!   I might get upset with myself if I allow it to get to Critical Mass and procrastinate, but I still Feel a measure of Control about my own Mess and Disorder, so it's not so bad.   For a Control Freak that is Important... because it is bad when that measure of Control is compromised by others making a Mess that they don't intend to Clean Up voluntarily or at all!!!   That's the point I begin to unravel!


But really, when I Contemplate the outcome... are such things Important ENOUGH that I need to make much ado about them at all and risk going over the edge?   It's not as if we have very much Company stopping in for a visit, so nobody will probably ever look at it or pass judgment.  Most of the Visitors we do have are Playmates of The G-Force and they could care less whether our Home is in Order or a total disaster.   In fact, they often contribute to it being so... either by helping with a Clean-Up Project or assisting with Creating the total disaster!    The Man isn't Messy... too many years in the Military I suppose have made him one of the most Orderly and Disciplined Individuals on the face of this Earth!  But he does have the Capacity to Ignore Chaos and Deferred Maintenance better than I do... and Tolerate it without having it get to him.  It gets to me... I Confess... even if I made it or am Responsible for the ultimate outcome, I'm inclined to abhor it more than The Others under this roof!  


And Delayed Gratification... that is another sticking point.   I'll watch those HTV Shows where someone moves into a Home with Projects pending and Walla... three to nine Months later they've got everything completed and no longer in a state of suspended animation or complete Chaos!  They've accomplished those things that make the Home Complete and perfectly habitable for them and how they want to Enjoy it all.   Meanwhile... back at Bohemian Valhalla, we're quickly steam rolling into our second decade here and though initially there was Progress... the Issues of Life ground everything to a screeching halt.  Not only Restoration and Remodeling being suspended, but Maintenance as well began to suffer as things went quite left on a personal level and Crisis overrode and trumped Home Improvements and fulfilling Dreams almost indefinitely.   We got to the point where I didn't even want to Dare to Dream in fact because it was too Painful!


  And the burden of doing it all and finding ways to fund it all is firmly resting upon my shoulders alone now... which was never an Expected outcome.   This was to be Our Dream Home and Retirement Haven and we were going to do it Together!  And when we bought it we were ALMOST Empty Nesters with just one Teenager, our Youngest, still at Home and not yet Raised!  We had a mere five years before he would have been Grown!   But within a mere Month of Purchasing our Historic Dream Home the Young Prince was born and it became clear that we would be Raising him.  Coincidentally about this time The Man's Health also began failing rapidly... and then five years later along came Princess T's birth with the same obvious outcome as her Big Brother.  Both Careers had to come to a screeching halt along the way for obvious reasons.  Many other Epic Crisis and Losses hit involving Extended Family as well, it was the perfect storm.   And then The Man's Catastrophic Accident in 2013 just iced the cake for Life Altering circumstances where things would never be the same again.  Major Adjustments would have to be made... many Dreams became somewhat of a Nightmare and had to just be laid to rest and moved through the stages of Grief over the Loss of.


So... I'm slowly Letting Go of the Fantasy that things will be Orderly and a Vision while I am still Raising Youngsters.   I am learning to have the Capacity to live in a perpetual mess and state of suspended animation while mostly just dealing with ongoing Crisis.  And until I cull the possessions to a Sane amount of only the most Beloved of Objects and dispose of the rest since my hands are too full to Care for everything and everyone there will always be a lot to do.   I've HAD to reach that Conclusion even though many Wise Sage Friends have told me many times that this is the primary Reason why I'm in such Distress... because my Expectations were not at all Realistic given our particular circumstances as they now stand.   But I tend to hold onto Fantasies longer than most I suppose... and the Letting Go of them isn't at all easy for me.   And the Conflict between my Fantasy and my Reality often mean there will be much ado about nothing still going on from time to time... until I Reconcile myself in a more balanced way of Being about it, which is a Process I'm slowly moving through one day at a time.


Blessings from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian 

Monday, March 30, 2015

Fast Forward Past Spring

So... there was this tremendous amount of stuff I was gonna try to get done before the intense heat set in... but the Weather had other Plans and fast forward past Spring right into Summer Heat already!  We're just a smidgen off of having triple digit heat... Officially anyway... I'm pretty sure it's gotten to 100 degrees plus Unoffocially from thermometer readings NOT where they take the Official Reading.   Regardless, we've already Officially broken Records for the hottest days on Record since they began recording daily temps, for several days in a row now.

This is not a Good Omen for what our Summer Temps are likely to be.   Granted, we didn't have much of a Winter, and for that I'm Grateful considering what I was hearing from all over the rest of the United States where they got hammered this Winter.   And because Autumn and Winter were so balmy I should have and could have just gotten that tremendous amount of stuff done then... but I didn't.   Nope, I was waiting for Spring... the dormancy that comes with the Winter Lazies and Enjoying the Holiday Seasons had overrode any logic or good sense.  

Yes, you always hear of the Lazy Days Of Summer... but in actuality, with the exception of Spring, I can have Lazy Days of Summer, Autumn and Winter!   I have a Laundry List of stuff that needs doing almost all of the time, it never seems to get shorter or caught up completely.   I have more Projects that aren't getting done or haven't even begun to get started... and to be brutally Honest, sometimes I don't have the Ambition to tackle the major ones lately.

Certainly when I get a burst of Energy and Determination I can wade through some pretty intimidating major and ambitious Projects... but that has been the exception to the Rule lately.   I blame it on not having an Adult Sidekick that would tackle any of it with me... and Rolling Solo, well, it is just rather Overwhelming to consider such a major commitment of Time and Energy.   When I'm tackling something significant alone I just fade out faster and don't have the same Spirit as when someone is Assisting me.


And by saying Assisting I don't even mean that they have to be put to Work actually doing anything but just being there.  Just having someone there and present to bounce Ideas and Decisions off of works Wonders for me personally in getting things done more efficiently and effectively.  My Decision making Process can get mired down otherwise in the minutia of any daunting task.


And since my Storage Cottage does not have Air Conditioning and it's now gone too Hot to tackle the Process Outside either except in the very early hours of the Morning... and I'm SO NOT a Morning Person... I might have missed my Window of Opportunity?   Well, unless I want the equivalent of a Sauna mingled with the Work... which would probably be a great way to lose weight... or drop dead... and at my Age I'm not certain which that would be so I probably shouldn't risk it?!  *Smiles*

But I can't even blame it all on the intense heat rolling in earlier than usual really.  Our Home and the Showrooms are rather in a shambles as well and they all have Air Conditioning.   The Art Studio Cottage Bedroom is still half painted and needs me to finish hanging drapes and Styling it.   I've only got half the Garden ready for Spring... well, that's an exaggeration, I've got the Front Porch done and planted some Veggies and Herbs in their Container Gardens.   

But I was Proud of what little I did get accomplished... it was a start... which is better than not starting anything I keep telling myself.  *Winks*   I had thought I'd gain and build momentum I suppose... but I didn't really... it stayed in the Land of Thoughts rather than Actions.  And I know that even if I had an Assistant it would still take a lot of  Free Time to wade through everything that needs to get done.   So... I need those days when I can tackle it without Issues Of Life Distractions either... which almost never happens.

And on the very rare instances where someone is a willing Volunteer I know I only have them for a very limited and brief time frame.  So I tend to choose those Projects that can actually be plowed through with fierce intensity and get done in short order if I have the Help present.   It's not going to be those more tedious Projects that consume too much precious Time, either theirs or mine, or it would seem like a huge imposition thrust upon them.

I've always joked that I need Paid Staff actually... but since that is never going to happen... I pacify myself with the thought that some of the Weeds are actually quite Pretty this year.  And at least something is growing in the rest of our Acreage so it's not totally devoid of Color and anything left Alive even though it's all been sadly neglected and not at all irrigated.   *Smiles*

And when I've had enough of just looking around at all the Work languishing and waiting to be done I'd much rather go out and do something Positive to take my Mind off of it.   Yes, I no longer have to go out to Work, I just wake up every Morning and there it is all around me!  *Smiles*  So I have to go out just to get AWAY from Work now!!!  *LOL*   And yes, some days I just Escape and to Hell with all the Work that still needs to get done because it's not as if I can do it all anyway in a day... or a week... or perhaps even Months devoted to it exclusively! 

Deferred Maintenance is rather like that you see... it seems to just multiply exponentially and get away from you!   And this has certainly gotten away from me, no doubt!   I have no Delusions about catching up with it anytime soon, and so... sometimes I just sidestep it for a while so as not to get totally Overwhelmed and Depressed about it's magnitude.   And that's Okay... because even now... I'd rather be Blogging anyways... *Winks*

Deep in Deferred Maintenance here in the Arizona Desert... with a tremendous amount of stuff clearly not getting done... and I barely Care... Dawn... The Bohemian

Friday, March 27, 2015

Whoosh... It Just Rushed Up On Me

You know how some Holidays just manage to rush right up on you and Whoosh, they're almost here and have caught you totally unprepared and off guard?  Well, Easter has done that to me this year, for some unfathomable reason I thought I had more time to get ready for it, so I hadn't even started to consider Decorating to Celebrate it nor purchasing the Kiddos Easter stuff!  

Usually I'm more at the top of my Game when it comes to preparing for any Holiday or Holy Day.  But when it's a panic stricken last minute prep and mad dash to drag everything out of Seasonal Storage I just end up minimizing the Vision.  I opt to scale back for what I'm going to do in the way of Styling and what will actually come out of Storage and be set up.   This was such a time as that.

I couldn't even really remember where what I wanted even was, since Easter Seasonal Storage is more scattered than Christmas or Halloween Seasonal Storage.  It doesn't take up as much room and so I squirrel it away and like a Squirrel forgetting where it stashed it's cache of nuts all over the place I can't find it.  I am lucky if I find even half of it if I don't have adequate lead time for a Treasure Hunt for it around the house! 

And I really do have a nice Collection of Easter Treasures I've accumulated over the years.   So I am disappointed that I didn't Plan better and check the Calendar to see how Time was running out.  Time enough to properly Prepare for such a Special Celebration and Enjoy the Visuals of some of my Favorite Seasonal Items to Display for the Holy Day!

Even the G-Kid Force noticed how Spartan my Easter Vignettes were this year and how they were scrambled out in half an hour's worth of Decorating!   Yes, I know I've still got some Time left and can Improve upon it... and I've kicked it into High Gear now that I know that it Whooshed up on me like this.

I almost left it too late to pick out Spring Blooms since most of the Nurseries and Shops are already closing out their Easter Stock and re-stocking with Summer Inventory.

But the biggest panic for me was the Easter Basket Prep... since Shops were already discounting their Easter Inventory and pickins were so lean that I had to get more Creative than usual.   And, since I knew I also didn't have a Good hiding place, I'd already decided Easter was close enough that the Kiddos could see and even have their Easter Gifts early if they didn't want to wait.

Which of coarse was a 'Given' since these are not the Waiting Kind of Kiddos and if I didn't react fast enough once they'd seen their Easter Gifts, I probably wouldn't even manage to get any Photo Ops Preserved for Posterity of Easter 2015!   *Winks*

The Young Prince had already informed us that he was now way too Mature for the Easter Egg Hunt so I'd have to fill in to do it with his little Sister instead.  Splendid, can you already tell how I'm looking forward to that, Easter Egg Hunting with Miss OCD!?!  *LOL*   So, I decided that a Traditional Easter Basket probably wouldn't be as well received either, now that he's allegedly such a Manly and Mature Fourteen and all.  *Winks*  I was quite proud of myself for coming up with the alternative of taping his Easter Treats to a Skateboard instead.  I mean nothing says "Easter" like a Death Skull on a Skateboard to an Emo Kid, right!?!  *LOL*

I knew that would be more of an Investment than a Typical Basket outlay since decent Skateboards are pricey, but I'd get a lot of Mileage out of such a Gift.  He's been borrowing his Friends Skateboards to get around Town since he'd recently wrecked his Rollerblades, so I knew a Skateboard would be an unexpected and useful Surprise.   He was Jazzed about it, not so much about my insistence of Pathological Picture Taking of him with it though.  *LOL*  Teen Angst and all it's difficult to get a Smiling Image of him lately, he's always so dreadfully Serious, especially if I even look in his direction, never mind point a camera!

Okay, so can you at least Pretend to feign Happiness and Joy for the Photo Op, even though clearly you're posing under protest?   Yeah, that's better... and off he Gleefully skates on it with his mouth filled with Pop Rocks.  *Smiles* 

 Yeah, you might have also noticed his new 'Do'?  He finally decided on his own that he didn't really wanna take care of his long locks like he should and deal with Natural Dreadlocks forming for his lack of Maintenance.  So he Surprised me by voluntarily opting for a shorter more manageable Style, Color me Happy and Relieved with the much more Handsome and Groomed look.  *Whew*

And I rushed his arse to our Stylist Friend John before he could change his Mind about the request to get it all cut off!  Whoosh... that Haircut came faster than Easter was coming!  *LMAO*   Yes, our Stylist's Shop is totally Groovy, he's an Old Hippie too and was part of a Big Hair Days Band.  John still has Luxurious enviable hair down past his hips... and I'm not opposed to Guys with long locks, so long as they are up to taking care of it ... Prince R clearly was NOT!   I couldn't convince him to just go to the Jamaican Hair Stylists and get Professionally done Dreads so we wouldn't have any more of the, "Did you even brush or wash your hair Today?" conversations, so this was the answer to Prayer for me!  *Whew!*

The Other One's Basket was put together by the Cracker Barrel Team, I like that you can choose all the Basket Supplies and receive a Complimentary Custom Easter Basket Display of it all.   She's got this Thing for those Googly Eyed Stuffed Animals and has a massive Collection of them building so I already knew I'd include a couple of them in her Basket this year.  So she got a Koala and a Seahorse, because, well, they remind everyone of Easter too, right?   Well, maybe just those living in Australia or Atlantis anyways. *Smiles*

And since The Other One LIVES for Photo Ops I knew I'd have no protest about her posing for her obligatory Easter pixs.  *Smiles*   I think she even changed her Wardrobe three times and Styled her hair and Accessories twice before she was ready to sit for her Session!  So that's the major Challenge with Photographing her, she is adamant and knows how she wants to look... well, sorta, Major decisions such as this are agonizing... and not just for her!   *Bwahahahaha*

Being the Ultimate Diva she has to be fully Convinced by her Photographer that she looks Absolutely Ahhhhmazing Darlink... and then she's ready and could sit for hours being the Center of the Universe and my undivided Attention bestowed upon her.  *Smiles*

"Here, take another one like THIS Gramma..." as she tries out every Facial Expression and Posing angle she can come up with before I say enough already!!!  *Ha ha ha*


And then she'll always plead and want at least ONE MORE Gramma... with her looking Pensive and away from the Camera... because apparently they do this on 'America's Next Top Model' or something?  *Smiles*

And we're all now comfortable with a little bit of Easter present in our Vignettes around the house in time for Celebrating.  Even if I don't get a lot more of it out and set up in time I'm learning that less can be enough sometimes when it comes to Holiday Decorating.   Never thought those words would be uttered out of my mouth!   Certainly my less is more than most people's more is.  *Winks*


And I'm still Searching for more of my Beautifully Decorated Eggs hidden somewhere around the house, that will be part of my personal Egg Hunt!  *LOL*

And of coarse every year I THINK about those Pinterest Projects I never got around to last Easter that PERHAPS I might get around to this Easter... who am I kidding, I barely got the Decorations out that were already Created!  *Ha ha ha*

I've still got some faux Eggs and Vintage Men's Ties also hidden around here somewhere waiting to Tie Dye the Graphics of them onto the Easter Eggs... looked so Cool last year that I Intended to do it... and just ran out of Time.   But it's still a Project I'd like to try my hand at and certainly the Supplies are around here somewhere... if only I can FIND them again?!?

What Easter Themed Projects do you have in the Making... or the Imagining of, if you are like me and might not end up actually Creating them in Time for this Holiday Season?   We always get around to Coloring Eggs, but I like to make those Stylized Permanent Ones for Annual Displays too to add to the Collection of Beautiful Easter Eggs to Style with.

And of coarse, even though I don't eat Chocolate, the rest of the Crew here must have their Seasonal Candy Bowl filled up.   Thankfully the Shops still had a good selection on hand of Easter Candies anyway, though some were already being marked down and wouldn't last long.

I never did get around to Styling my Showrooms with very much in the way of Easter Inventory and what I did have hasn't lasted very long.  Next year I shall have to be way more Prepared in Advance for all of the Special Holidays if I want Good Retail Sales when folks are in the Mood to buy for them.

Honestly I don't know how the Indie Shops manage to do it so well without mass produced merchandising?!?   Sourcing Vintage or Unique Halloween and Easter Inventory has been a particular Challenge that I haven't had Great Success with yet.   In fact, I don't know that it is in abundance to even Source unless you've been at it for some time or have Cultivated Great Contacts!?

I Love Styling for any and all Holidays and Holy Days so it's not that I don't have the Desire... but I often don't have the Time nor the Inventory to do it like I want to be able to so that it's a Showstopper and particularly Impressive or Inspiring.   But I Plan to work on that in the Future and get my Act together one day.

Where is your Favorite Easter Displays my Friends?   Unlike Halloween and Christmas it is a Holiday that tends to get neglected Style Wise, like Thanksgiving does, so Decor is sparser and more limited than I'd like it to be.  Which is why I often just want to and prefer to Create my own unique pieces instead, lest I can't find any in the Retail Marketplace.

And when I do find Vintage Pieces, I must admit I tend to just want to hold onto them and not offer them up for Sale because I know I probably won't find anything like it again no matter how far and wide I Search!?

This is a Sweet Vintage Piece I saw at our Antique Mall and may just have to add to our Collection at Home.   These are the things I Seek but often just can't find an abundance of.

Luckily Vintage and Antique Easter Bonnets are an exception to that Rule... and I've Photographed a few that caught my Eye on a recent Window Shopping Adventure to find Vintage Hats with equally Yummy Vintage Millinery attached to them.   Often when I'm adding to my Vintage Hat Collection it is the Vintage Millinery that I'm really buying the Hat for and closes the Deal for me.

I'm not a Hat Person so rarely wear them, but I Love to Display with them and be Inspired by them.  I remember growing up that my Mom was a Major Hat Person as were many Women of her Era.  I Loved to see her in the Vintage Hats she Collected, she looked so Exotic, Refined and Beautiful in them.   Back in da day Accessorizing was really Big Deal, as was Dressing Up, much more so than now.   And going to Church on Easter Morning was a Fashion Show that rivaled Fashion Week!

Blessings from the Arizona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian
A life touched by God always ends in touching others. - Erwin McManus

I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness for it shows me the stars. - Og Mandino (1923-1996)

For creativity to flourish one should try to look at everything as though it were being seen for the first or the last time. - Quote from "A Thousand Paths To Creativity" by David Baird

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